The Harsh Truth: A Twin Flame Thing of Love and Loneliness

This is part 20 of 20 in the book Twin Flame

A Twin Flame Journey of Love and Loneliness

I have been thinking about this so much, you know. And I know the feeling of having someone made just for you is not just alluring but a desperate need as well. Because that means your soul is not alone in this world.

You have someone who is just yours.

Your other half. Someone who is you, but different as well.

Yet it’s not easy. Talking to a stranger is different, and talking to your twin flame is completely different. Even without talking, like a magnet, you connect to each other’s energies, and they always run high when you are close to each other, even if you don’t know you both are in the same vicinity.

My twin flame lives in the present. He’s practical. He understands actions and keeps his emotions tight and closed under lock and key. I don’t even know if he understands spiritual connections or bonds that transcend the physical relationships that we have on this earth.

I can never expect him to take signs from the universe and search for me. That’s just not who he is.

But I know who he is, yet I can’t do anything.

He might think all of this is fake; he might assume that I’m just one of those girls who was fawning after him and his image. But that’s not true, and so I stay away from him.

A part of me… the part that knows… knows that he knows.

But because he never tried to reach me, the cynical part of me can never be sure.

I don’t want him, and that wasn’t easy.

At one point, I craved him. I really did. I wanted to touch him, you know, feel him under my fingers. It was just a crazy feeling to feel the solid form of him.

But then time passed, and with that hope dwindled.

Then it was just to meet him once, talk to him, to know the guy who was a part of me, yet so different. He is different. Too different from me. And a part of me thinks… he might not even like someone like me, because I don’t match his personality, and if he’s looking for someone who matches his energy, I’m the wrong number.

From my side… I love every part of him.

Love. It’s a small four-letter word compared to what I really feel for him.

It’s close to devotion. It’s the name I whisper when I’m walking alone at night and scared for my life. It’s the name I whisper when I’m waxing and need a push-up from the constant pain of hair being pulled out from your skin. I always remember him when the injection pricks me.

Believe me, it makes me feel better. Because… I don’t feel alone when I say his name. I feel like he’s just with me.

But he’s not literally part of my life. And that’s okay. Finding your twin flame is one of the most impossible occurrences in your life.

Being with him, marrying him, having babies with him… is… impossible. At least for me.

We came in different timelines, so he lived a life before me… before I was even born inside a body. And I know it sometimes happens, just so that the part of the soul can experience life on its own before starting to feel the constant pull.

Not everyone has a twin flame, because tearing your soul into two parts to experience life is not everyone’s cup of tea. But those who take this journey… they may not remember that their souls did this on their own. No one forced them.

The soul decided to be divided into two bodies. And then live life alone while also craving the other part.

One who can control the urges and move away is called the runner here.

And the one who succumbs to the pull and runs after them is called the chaser.

I’m okay now. But it’s like being sober and feeling the constant pull to give in, yet not giving in. Because this journey is alone.

You do meet, you really do, but you have no idea in which lifetime. Until you are done learning the individual lessons, you will never ever unite. The universe won’t let you. And if you have united, then believe me, you have gone through the toughest times apart and rose above it for your grand reunion.

The End. Thank you for reading.

Do check out my other articles on Twin Flames.

Random Late Night Thoughts: A Twin Flame Thing of Love and Loss

He Chose Distance: A Twin Flame Separation Story—Runner–Chaser, Inner Union & the 2025 Energy Shift

What Is a Twin Flame? A Personal Take of Love and Life

What If It’s All an Illusion? A Twin Flame Question That Haunts the Heart

She Thought He was Her Twin Flame: Love & Astrology Mashup

Disbelief in the Twin Flame Journey: Is it Part of the Awakening? Or Loss of Love?

Twin Flame: To all the Divine Feminine out there. Love Unconditionally

Twin Flames: The Core Truth and Why the Journey of Eternal Love is Never Easy

An Open Letter to My Twin Flame: You Were Always the One for Me, my Love, my Life

Twin Flame: It Was Never About Union, but an Acceptance of Love and the Journey