Twin Flame. A love that isn’t meant for union, yet refuses to leave. A connection that is both a curse and a blessing—one that lingers, forever unshaken.
Twin Flame: It was never about Union
How did I get it mixed up? How did I let myself dream about this?
It was never about union.
It wasn’t supposed to be what it is now. I wasn’t supposed to know. But I did. My soul cracked open a door I wasn’t meant to walk through yet, revealing a truth that wasn’t ready to be seen. My twin flame.
That was never God’s plan. Or so I thought. Because my knowledge of God, of power, of love, I knew one thing: why would the power above me bring him to me only to keep it at a distance.
Because after knowing about him, nothing happened. No grand love story, no destined coming together. Just an unshakable awareness, a silent curse that seeped into my bones.
Loving him was a curse. Letting him go was a curse. Living without him was a curse. Even breathing felt like a curse. After knowing about him, every moment, every molecule, every breath felt like a curse.
What wasn’t a curse? The time before I knew. The time I was free. Back then, he was just another soul in the world—nameless, faceless, insignificant to me. Now, I could never go back to that ignorance. Now, he was a part of me—an immovable presence, like a weight I could never shed.
Like the blemishes on my skin that always return, like the mood swings that visit me every month, this was now a permanent part of my life. I had no choice but to learn to live with it.
So, I do.
I talk to him in the silence. When a song plays that reminds me of him, I close my eyes and pretend he’s listening too. When I sit, I leave a space beside me, as if he’s there. Because in a way, he is. Sometimes, he occupies more space inside me than I do. Sometimes, he is more present in my mind, my breath, my thoughts than I am.
I feel him in the moments between my heartbeat, in the words I don’t say, in the spaces between my ribs where my breath catches when I think of him.
My heart is his. My mind fights to hold on, but it, too, is his. And my soul? It was never mine to begin with. It has always belonged to him.
That’s what it feels like to recognize your twin flame.
It doesn’t matter if you accept it or not. Do you get to choose whether you accept your own shadow? No. It’s simply there. It exists, inseparable from you.
And so does he.
He isn’t going anywhere.
Twin Flame: I don’t want union anymore.
I don’t want union anymore.
Not because I don’t love him—I do, in ways I can’t even explain. But now, I’m afraid. Afraid of how it would make me feel.
He’s like a star—beautiful, distant, untouchable. I can watch from afar, admire the light, feel its presence in my life. But what if I were given the chance to reach him? If I sat in a spacejet, touched that star, held it in my hands… would it burn me? Would it consume me? Or worse, would it lose its magic once it was no longer distant?
I don’t know. And maybe that’s what scares me the most.
Yet, I know one thing—this is it. There is no space for happiness—not the real kind. God says, “Focus on your own journey,” but how can I when he is my shadow? When his presence weaves itself into my every step? This was never just my journey. It was always both of ours. It has always been like carrying two souls inside one body.
Yes, I can accept it. I can control the urge to reach out. Humans are built to endure, to survive, to live in quiet sadness, in the dim understanding that life twists and turns in ways we cannot control.
Like a widow who learns to smile again after losing the love of her life, who carries her grief behind closed doors, shedding silent tears where no one sees.
Like a love lost too soon, a breakup that shouldn’t have happened, one that shatters everything inside you. You wake up. You smile. You go to work, do what you’re supposed to do. But that lingering feeling—that weight in your chest—it never leaves.
Twin flames aren’t always meant to be part of your life, but they are always part of you.
And while acceptance is the key, it’s okay if you can’t smile today. It’s okay if your soul feels stuck, helpless, done. It’s okay if you cry for him. It’s okay if some days, you don’t have the strength to accept. It’s okay if your heart still aches for them. If your soul feels heavy, if the weight of it all feels unbearable.
It’s okay if you wake up and feel done.
Done with the longing.
Done with the waiting.
Done with the journey itself.
It’s okay.
Because this love was never meant to be easy. And neither was this path of the twin flame journey.
The End. Thank you for reading.
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He saw her—a woman so radiant, so full of life, she made his chaos stand still. She erupted into his world like a dream, settling in his heart and claiming it as her own.
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- Her Confession – Truths whispered in the dark.
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